Hello I am Nessalyn the college student aka dearness and you shouldn't take anything I write from midnight to 3am too seriously
Well, this episode quickly became one of my favourites.
Sadie is the only one allowed to call me Gershwin. I still don’t like it, but she’s allowed.
Some harsh but very very true words
When people let me review their portfolios (on career day or open days at my game design school) I explicitly ban them from commenting during the review… …because otherwise they will follow the impulse to downplay everything I see in an attempt at being humble.
"this is an old image…"
"I’m not happy with that one…"
"this is just a sketch…"
"I did this really quickly…"
"there is better stuff on later pages…"
It’s totally understandable to have those impulses. The quality of art is not empirical data and therefore impossible to measure. Good art, bad art, it all comes down to standards. And you don’t want to come off as naive or self-absorbed.
But just don’t do it. Don’t talk yourself down in front of others. In the best case you have someone supportive who now thinks “damn, this person needs to be prepped up all the time. Do I really want to work with somebody like that” or in worst case “now that you say it, yeah, this is kinda lame/rushed/unfinished/lazy, go away.”
You can only submit what you have. If that is not enough, then it’s not enough. Your attitude will not change that. But if it is enough, you can do serious harm by not being confident of who you are now.
This means appreciating what you are able to do right now and have a clear vision of what you want to learn, be confident that you will learn it in time.
This is really important. Eliminate this urge. Eliminate it professionally, when having contact with people in a position to buy your work. Eliminate it socially, when you just share your work for fun. Destroy this urge as thoroughly as you possibly can.
Because when you have done that, you’ll find that you feel at least 25% less shitty about your own work. You lose the urge to do it. You stop reinforcing those negative thoughts, and they retreat. They may never go away completely (although they might!) but this is good practice for ignoring those thoughts flat-out.
Don’t shit-talk yourself. Even if you can’t be SO PROUD, don’t ever try to influence anyone’s opinion toward your work in the negative.
Try to love your work. Try to see what you learned from each piece, even if it’s a failure. If you feel that you learned nothing, appreciate the fact that just spending time on it is honing your skills and giving you valuable practice.
i used to be super not-confident in my own work. When I stopped pointing out the flaws in my own stuff, I felt better about it almost immediately.
The piece of advice I got that helped me the most with this is; the people looking at your work be it your director or an HR person, trust them to know and see the good work there that you’ve become desensitized to. We all have rushed shots and stuff, they can see the polished diamond inside of a rock, it’s literally their job! So don’t fret too much!
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In honor of national dog day, here’s a vid of my sister’s dog Buddy struggling to get inside. Hahahaha.
buddy does not know
Something that was brought up in The September Monologues that was rather interesting, is this idea between Knowing Vs. Understanding.
Steve is a determined and friendly citizen willing to do his best, but just wants to let people see Night Vale for what it truly is. He has all this information, but he doesn’t get what to do with it. But overall I think he just wants to not feel like he’s the only one who sees how terrible and corrupt things are. He wants to make sense of why Night Vale is the way it is, making connections and conclusions that give him information but ultimately don’t give him any true meaning. He’s hoping to find other people who will understand what he sees, especially his own family, even if it means he ends up alienating them in the long run. Steve’s monologue brings up the issue that just because he knows all that he believes there is to know about the structures and hierarchies of governing and political bodies, it doesn’t mean he truly understands what it all means. He’s trying desparately to make sense of a system that doesn’t make sense. He questions everything and needs to know everything, but even with fitting all the pieces of the puzzle he still doesn’t understand the deeper meaning to the final picture laid in front of him.
Cecil’s awareness of the town’s shenanigans has been alluded to here and there in several episodes, that Cecil sometimes knows certain information but it’s forbidden for him to talk about. He is aware of the risks that come with being a public broadcaster in such a strict police state. Steve even said himself that the information he himself has could get people killed. Cecil cares a lot about his family, and doesn’t want Janice to ever have to have her life threatened, especially not because of someone else’s carlessness. It seems that while Cecil has been raised the “Night Vale way”, his eagerness to agree with government isn’t always out of willingness, but ocassionally out of safety. While Cecil doesn’t know everything there is to know about what’s going on, he understands what it could mean. And that he understands that Night Vale is an unknowable place filled with unknowable things. One of the most pivotal moments in the series was from One Year Later, which Cecil says “We understand the lights above the Arby’s. We understand so much. But the sky behind those lights…reminds us we don’t understand even more.” He doesn’t necessarily know what those lights are, but in that moment he and Carlos understand. And they both understand that, in Carlos’ words “Sometimes things seem so strange, or malevolent, and then you find that, underneath, it was something else altogether. Something pure, and innocent.” Neither of them really have true knowledge about Night Vale, but instead this profound feeling of understanding the world they live in. That it doesn’t make sense, and it can be terrifying and lonely and dark, but it is also filled with beauty and joy and love. Cecil may not be knowing, but it seems he does understand Night Vale.
It’s no wonder that with these attitudes juxtaposed, that it becomes clear why there is so much tension between them. What’s interesting is that there isn’t really a Good vs. Bad situation here, neither of them are the good guy or the bad guy. Instead it’s just that the way they see the world clash so painfully, on top of emotions running high with familial matters. Both of the characters are sympathetic, that Steve knows so much and feels isolated because of it, and Cecil feels he and his family are threatened by this knowledge. It’s a fascinating dichotomy and it was really great delving more into Steve Carlsberg’s character like that. I love the way this show has been developing these characters a lot.
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One of the best moments of my childhood.
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I can’t even tell you how excited I was that they turned this book into a movie and it was good
I literally have absolutely no complaints with the movie at all. Once, my friend and I did comparisons from the book and the movie, and we found the only major difference was the fact that Stanley wasn’t heavy set when he arrived at the camp in the movie. The majority of the script is raw quotations from the book.
This is my favorite book to movie adaptation and it did everything Percy Jackson, Inkheart, and The Golden Compass didn’t.
yesss this was such a good book and film
And the only reason Stanely wasn’t heavy set was because in the book he loses tons of weight and eventually ends up being almost thin. The director said he didn’t want to force an adolescent boy to lose weight on such a quick filming schedule, and L’bouf’s audition was so spot on, that they decided to go with a thinner Stanely from the beginning
HoLY SHit i just realised, Steve Carlsberg can see things and understand them and he can see what’s going on when other people don’t, remember that time he accused Carlos of being a spy
I’m reblogging this again cause it’s that awesome.
Then there’s the Navy